So here we are.. the middle of term 3 craziness. I just got home a few minutes ago and it is 10:43pm. In just over 8 hours, I will be up and getting ready to leave to start yet another crazy long day. This cough is getting the best of me and is making it really hard to make it through classes. However, with all of our assessments coming up so soon, I am finding it really hard to allow myself to take a break and really recuperate. I also am having trouble accepting that it's not anything I have done wrong with all this getting sick business. I feel as though I am slacking off in a way for taking days off from classes and trying to stay in bed and just rest. I know there is nothing I could do about it and that it's not really my fault that I am sick what seems like all the time. But I would just appreciate a break! This year so far.. January, the flu; March, kidney stones; May, bronchitis. It never ends. I know that I am going and going all the time and that my body is under a lot of strain with my awful commute every day along with the ridiculous changes in weather all the time here. The stress of term 3 is also getting to me as well, I think. I have had to put together a choreography piece in a matter of about 4 weeks total, start to finish, which is really hard and a lot of work. Also, there are assessments for every one of my classes throughout this set of ten weeks. I feel as though I am drowning underneath it all in a way. There is always a pile of work that I need to be doing it seems. I don't really get the chance to finish an assignment and be content with handing it in because there is another one due just after the last one. I guess that is just the nature of being a student.. however, this year in particular, there have not been a lot of assessments throughout the year, so it is harsh to go 8 months without the stress of it all and then be suddenly thrown into having 12 or more all right alongside one another.
There are only 6 weeks left here. Unfortunately, the majority of all that time is going to be spent stressed and tired all the time. I wish that I finished school earlier or that I didn't have such a time-consuming schedule here so that I could actually enjoy what all London has to offer. If I were to go back and change one thing about my time here, it would be my scheduling (though at Laban, there isn't much room for variety within the schedule). I don't like the fact that I have to spend three hours a day commuting back and forth from central London and that by the time I have finished my commute and classes for the day, I am too tired to go out anywhere and enjoy living in the city center. I think if I even just had Fridays off or something, that I would be able to see more of the city and travel more around the surrounding countries.
Everyone in my house is beginning to pack up and make their way back to the states. It is going to be a lot harder, I think, when mostly everyone is gone, because this huge house will be even more empty. I will be excited at the possibility that the kitchen won't be a complete disaster for sure, though. Haha - it does tend to get rather messy with 25 people all using the same space each day.
I guess I am going to close here for tonight.. my brain is too tired to keep thinking. Now to shower, and get to sleep so I can have a prayer at functioning tomorrow for my 10-hour day.
Have a good week everyone - cheers -- mk
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The word busy.
Busy.
This word seems to fill every part of my mind and my life lately. I can not catch a breath it seems. I only have just uner 7 weeks of classes left here at Laban.. but I don't feel that my time here is anywhere near coming to a close. As I sit here thinking about each of the things on my to-do list.. it makes me a bit sick to my stomach. How in the world am I going to get it all finished?? I have to complete a choreography piece within the next two weeks... somehow. And on top of all of that.. I have to prepare for the rest of my assessments and projects that are due soon too. The list of these includes, contemporary assessment, ballet assessment, jazz assessment, teaching studies teaching assessment, teaching dance technique module file, choreology 2 research project, and a performace for the rep class as well. Oh man. Welcome to 7 weeks of little to no sleep. This week, I completed my teaching dance technique final teaching assessment and I think it went well.. so glad to have one more thing checked off my list of things to do, though. The one thing about my assessments is that at least they are fairly spread out within my weeks so I don't have 4 things piled into one week. I do appreciate that for sure!!
Once I am finished with my third 10 week term here, I will have one final week in London to enjoy and tie up loose ends. My mom will be joining me for a few days that week, pending the nice behavior of the volcano in Iceland) and we will spend the week seeing last minute things as well as packing up the entirety of my room in Notting Hill. It makes me sad to think that I will have to pack up and clear out everything from this year. However, it is also very exciting to think that I have so much to go home to. I will be teaching at Carolina Dance Center and for Fancy Feet all summer and then will begin my senior year in the fall. CRAZY! I will certainly be busy throughout the summer.. but it will be totally worth it since I will be doing what I love the whole time. I also will be moving into a townhouse when I return, which is super exciting as well! I can't wait!! :))
Oh next year... the fall semester is going to be pretty much the death of me.. let's be honest. I am taking 18 credit hours.. but more than that really just not all for credit. I will end up with about 19 or 20 hours in reality. Plus at least 2 jobs and my studio internship. I may be wanting to crawl under a rock at some times.. but I am looking forward to all of the experience and challenges I will have in the fall. I can feel the sleepless nights coming on already.. but that's ok. That is what college is supposed to be all about anyway.. I think. Haha!
On to the rest of today... rehearsals, classes, tutorials, emails, meetings, reading, commuting, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, showering... and all that fun stuff. Have an awesome day, everyone!
cheers :) mk
This word seems to fill every part of my mind and my life lately. I can not catch a breath it seems. I only have just uner 7 weeks of classes left here at Laban.. but I don't feel that my time here is anywhere near coming to a close. As I sit here thinking about each of the things on my to-do list.. it makes me a bit sick to my stomach. How in the world am I going to get it all finished?? I have to complete a choreography piece within the next two weeks... somehow. And on top of all of that.. I have to prepare for the rest of my assessments and projects that are due soon too. The list of these includes, contemporary assessment, ballet assessment, jazz assessment, teaching studies teaching assessment, teaching dance technique module file, choreology 2 research project, and a performace for the rep class as well. Oh man. Welcome to 7 weeks of little to no sleep. This week, I completed my teaching dance technique final teaching assessment and I think it went well.. so glad to have one more thing checked off my list of things to do, though. The one thing about my assessments is that at least they are fairly spread out within my weeks so I don't have 4 things piled into one week. I do appreciate that for sure!!
Once I am finished with my third 10 week term here, I will have one final week in London to enjoy and tie up loose ends. My mom will be joining me for a few days that week, pending the nice behavior of the volcano in Iceland) and we will spend the week seeing last minute things as well as packing up the entirety of my room in Notting Hill. It makes me sad to think that I will have to pack up and clear out everything from this year. However, it is also very exciting to think that I have so much to go home to. I will be teaching at Carolina Dance Center and for Fancy Feet all summer and then will begin my senior year in the fall. CRAZY! I will certainly be busy throughout the summer.. but it will be totally worth it since I will be doing what I love the whole time. I also will be moving into a townhouse when I return, which is super exciting as well! I can't wait!! :))
Oh next year... the fall semester is going to be pretty much the death of me.. let's be honest. I am taking 18 credit hours.. but more than that really just not all for credit. I will end up with about 19 or 20 hours in reality. Plus at least 2 jobs and my studio internship. I may be wanting to crawl under a rock at some times.. but I am looking forward to all of the experience and challenges I will have in the fall. I can feel the sleepless nights coming on already.. but that's ok. That is what college is supposed to be all about anyway.. I think. Haha!
On to the rest of today... rehearsals, classes, tutorials, emails, meetings, reading, commuting, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, showering... and all that fun stuff. Have an awesome day, everyone!
cheers :) mk
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Just thinking..
So today is a pretty important day for several reasons and it has got me thinking quite a lot.
First, it is Mother's Day back home and I miss my mom a lot! I wish I could be back in America to give her a big hug and take her out to dinner tonight - next year for sure mom!!
Next, my birthdayyyy is coming up in 2 weeks! I can't believe I am going to be yet another year older! I am so excited to celebrate my 21st is the big and beautiful city of London all weekend and then to celebrate again with some dear friends in New York City over the July 4th holiday.. and then celebrate another time back in Raleigh after that! :)) Yayy for extended birthday celebrations!!! Haha!
Also, it is Graduation Day at Meredith College. I am so sad that I am not able to be on campus to celebrate the achievements of my wonderful MC ladies. I really do miss you all so very much and I know that you all will be extremely successful in all you do. Best of luck always!! Especially to all my dancers in the class 2010, I want you all to know just how much each of you mean to me! You all are some of the most genuine and unique people I have met in my life and I am so thankful to know you all. Thank you all for being the incredible women that you are!
This whole idea of Graduation has me really thinking as well. I know that I am nowhere near finished with my junior year of college... seeing as I still have countless hand-ins and assessments to complete within the next 7 weeks of my last term here in London.. but it has hit me now that I am officially at one year until I graduate. Where has the time gone? How am I already preparing to be a senior in college? Where will I go after I am finished? Will I stay in Raleigh and teach or will I maybe move somewhere else in the country.. or even move out of the country, to England or somewhere else, to pursue a Masters of some kind? Who knows.. I guess I have another year to think about it. Haha - any suggestions??
Only 7 more weeks of classes left and 8 weeks left here in England. It's impossible to comprehend the fact that I have spent the past 8 months of my life living on my own in a foreign country. If you had told me a year ago that I would have done all of this.. I would not have believed you. I can not believe that I have made it all the way through this journey. It has been a fun, hard and life-changing experience living here in England for a year. I have learned so much about who I am as a person and who I want to be in this world. I have been exposed to some of the most breathtaking sights in the world and have encountered some of the most precious friends ever. I am so thankful for this year abroad.. no matter how many nights I have gone without sleep, how many nights I spent in a foreign hospital with the flu or kidney stones or how many times I started bawling from the thought of missing out on so many things at home.
That's it for now.. I guess the best lesson I am learning presently is just to live completely in the moment. It doesn't matter what happened yesterday.. or what could potentially happen tomorrow. What matters is today.. right now.
Much love always - cheers :) mk
First, it is Mother's Day back home and I miss my mom a lot! I wish I could be back in America to give her a big hug and take her out to dinner tonight - next year for sure mom!!
Next, my birthdayyyy is coming up in 2 weeks! I can't believe I am going to be yet another year older! I am so excited to celebrate my 21st is the big and beautiful city of London all weekend and then to celebrate again with some dear friends in New York City over the July 4th holiday.. and then celebrate another time back in Raleigh after that! :)) Yayy for extended birthday celebrations!!! Haha!
Also, it is Graduation Day at Meredith College. I am so sad that I am not able to be on campus to celebrate the achievements of my wonderful MC ladies. I really do miss you all so very much and I know that you all will be extremely successful in all you do. Best of luck always!! Especially to all my dancers in the class 2010, I want you all to know just how much each of you mean to me! You all are some of the most genuine and unique people I have met in my life and I am so thankful to know you all. Thank you all for being the incredible women that you are!
This whole idea of Graduation has me really thinking as well. I know that I am nowhere near finished with my junior year of college... seeing as I still have countless hand-ins and assessments to complete within the next 7 weeks of my last term here in London.. but it has hit me now that I am officially at one year until I graduate. Where has the time gone? How am I already preparing to be a senior in college? Where will I go after I am finished? Will I stay in Raleigh and teach or will I maybe move somewhere else in the country.. or even move out of the country, to England or somewhere else, to pursue a Masters of some kind? Who knows.. I guess I have another year to think about it. Haha - any suggestions??
Only 7 more weeks of classes left and 8 weeks left here in England. It's impossible to comprehend the fact that I have spent the past 8 months of my life living on my own in a foreign country. If you had told me a year ago that I would have done all of this.. I would not have believed you. I can not believe that I have made it all the way through this journey. It has been a fun, hard and life-changing experience living here in England for a year. I have learned so much about who I am as a person and who I want to be in this world. I have been exposed to some of the most breathtaking sights in the world and have encountered some of the most precious friends ever. I am so thankful for this year abroad.. no matter how many nights I have gone without sleep, how many nights I spent in a foreign hospital with the flu or kidney stones or how many times I started bawling from the thought of missing out on so many things at home.
That's it for now.. I guess the best lesson I am learning presently is just to live completely in the moment. It doesn't matter what happened yesterday.. or what could potentially happen tomorrow. What matters is today.. right now.
Much love always - cheers :) mk
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