Exhausted, sick, all of the above.

So here we are.. the middle of term 3 craziness.  I just got home a few minutes ago and it is 10:43pm.  In just over 8 hours, I will be up and getting ready to leave to start yet another crazy long day.  This cough is getting the best of me and is making it really hard to make it through classes.  However, with all of our assessments coming up so soon, I am finding it really hard to allow myself to take a break and really recuperate.  I also am having trouble accepting that it's not anything I have done wrong with all this getting sick business.  I feel as though I am slacking off in a way for taking days off from classes and trying to stay in bed and just rest.  I know there is nothing I could do about it and that it's not really my fault that I am sick what seems like all the time.  But I would just appreciate a break!  This year so far.. January, the flu; March, kidney stones; May, bronchitis.  It never ends.  I know that I am going and going all the time and that my body is under a lot of strain with my awful commute every day along with the ridiculous changes in weather all the time here.  The stress of term 3 is also getting to me as well, I think.  I have had to put together a choreography piece in a matter of about 4 weeks total, start to finish, which is really hard and a lot of work.  Also, there are assessments for every one of my classes throughout this set of ten weeks.  I feel as though I am drowning underneath it all in a way.  There is always a pile of work that I need to be doing it seems.  I don't really get the chance to finish an assignment and be content with handing it in because there is another one due just after the last one.  I guess that is just the nature of being a student.. however, this year in particular, there have not been a lot of assessments throughout the year, so it is harsh to go 8 months without the stress of it all and then be suddenly thrown into having 12 or more all right alongside one another.

There are only 6 weeks left here.  Unfortunately, the majority of all that time is going to be spent stressed and tired all the time.  I wish that I finished school earlier or that I didn't have such a time-consuming schedule here so that I could actually enjoy what all London has to offer. If I were to go back and change one thing about my time here, it would be my scheduling (though at Laban, there isn't much room for variety within the schedule).  I don't like the fact that I have to spend three hours a day commuting back and forth from central London and that by the time I have finished my commute and classes for the day, I am too tired to go out anywhere and enjoy living in the city center.  I think if I even just had Fridays off or something, that I would be able to see more of the city and travel more around the surrounding countries. 

Everyone in my house is beginning to pack up and make their way back to the states.  It is going to be a lot harder, I think, when mostly everyone is gone, because this huge house will be even more empty.  I will be excited at the possibility that the kitchen won't be a complete disaster for sure, though.  Haha - it does tend to get rather messy with 25 people all using the same space each day. 

I guess I am going to close here for tonight.. my brain is too tired to keep thinking.  Now to shower, and get to sleep so I can have a prayer at functioning tomorrow for my 10-hour day.

Have a good week everyone - cheers -- mk